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The ¥outh
02:02
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A sickness within is all that it seems. Which leads me to the question, “Who rescued who?” Our minds are trained to this illusion that physically being alone is what makes ¥ou isolated from the rest of the world, but I’m here to tell you that standing alone doesn’t make ¥ou alone; not when ¥ou’re by me. ¥ou ask yourself, “Who is this stranger?” and I ask ¥ou, “What must I do so you believe what I’m saying? If talk is cheap I’ve already been defeated before I begin to speak, or I even start to breathe.” Maybe that one feeling, that one life experience, that one phrase is all that we need. Maybe it’s fear that sets us in the path of self-righteousness. Maybe a sense of surety between our fear and what is profound is all that we need. So I challenge ¥ou to break free from the tradition, to take my hand and to follow me. Time and experience will make us believe we will fail, will make us believe we will falter, but this is a war I will fight. Will ¥ou fight along side me? Once you cross that precipice there’s no turning back, we only have one place to go. So I leave the ¥outh here with one thought, a thought not everybody in this world will take it it’s entirety. One day ¥ou’re going to see that the person that ¥ou feared, will finally set ¥ou free.
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2. |
Against This Wall
03:32
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Letting go of what I’ve had/ To start this over again/
Controlling every part of my past will land me right back to where I am/
It’s a dark and scary place/ But I call this place home/
It’s all that I know/ So I’ve been told/
Restrained but never broken/
Lost and I’ve never been found/
This is all an illusion/
A cruel circle that goes round and round/
I stick close to these walls/ I stand tall to seem tough/
I only trick myself/ Cause these monsters knew once/
They were the ones/ Up against this wall/
It’s only a matter of time/ Before I become one/
Have you ever felt so alone/ Yet so alive/
It’s like cutting open hearts except I don’t bleed out/ I just feast on the blood inside/
A quiet paranoia plaguing me its kept me hostage with a gun up to my head yelling, “Where’s the money”, but I try to calm him down with the words I’m writing down/ No it’s not a ransom note, but an attempt to keep my brains from off the ground/
Ahh/ I can breathe/ Maybe that’s the underlining feeling that we need/
A sense of surety between our fear and what’s profound in this life that we have found to call our own and stick around/
If you’re just like me/ Don’t loose your ground/
One day you’re gonna see/ That the person that you feared/
Will finally set you free/
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3. |
Follow Me
03:50
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These knots are tied, double-knotted crossed with lies/ Please just let me go/
You’ve strung me on for far too long/ Too long so I gave up/
Everything about myself/ So I didn’t feel alone/
My magnetic heart still grasping on/ Afraid to let you go/
My feelings based on your expressions/ Expressed in a way that it’s sorta depressing how I dress my pain/ I’m entertaining my oppressions/
Some days I wonder what it’d be like if the light on your face never glowed/
But I’d rather live in darkness than know/ I would rather rot than explode/
These bombs are exploding inside my head, but I’ve never been more alive, these shadows of the darkness stride around with a little less pride/
I’ve dampered their spirits and I’ve set them aside/
Now I’m walking alone/ With no alibi.
This life I lead/ Is all my own/
Can’t take that back if you tried/
If you love me so/ Please let me go/
Can’t take you back if I tried/
Demons and monsters that are living inside my brain won’t acknowledge the fact that I’m staying positive, despite the impossible/
Or the common logic as something as simple that rhymes with orange/
Or provoking the knowledge that comes from a “Berklee Star” dropout/
How come I need acceptance/ Do you feel the same or am I alone/
I’m always second guessing myself instead I pretend/
I don’t feel any pain when inside my body’s aching, forsaking the decision to stand up again/ And pretend that my knees aren’t shaking/
I’m scared of my own voice and what it might tell me so I just write it down/
In hopes I’m not the only one to see just how crazy I sound/
Handwritten in truth is the ink that bleeds from my skin/
Please bare with me I beg/ The blurry details, I’ve sinned/
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Past and Pending
03:44
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Hold on as I pick up the pieces of my heart on the floor/
Shattered glass fragments of memories we’ve had long before/
Cuts and scraps on my hand is a banner in blood/
As you wash away the mess you’re just covering up it is we’ve become/
There’s no turning back now/
We only have one place to go/
We left what we had/
To start this again/
There’s no looking back/
Cause I know we wont, I know we wont ever last/
Drop the rope and call it quits before we start hating our guts/
You can’t mend a broken heart trying to cover up what’s done/
All we have is time to try and figure out which path to go/
You go left, I’ll go right and maybe we’ll meet down the road/
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5. |
Take My Hand
03:07
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Sing this loud hit it close to home/
Hold it out so these words are strong/
Tear it down now these walls can’t show/
Take my hand when you’re loosing hope/
Lying on my bedroom floor/ Eyes swollen shut/
Scared of the world outside/ Cut from all technology/
Connected to only myself inside these walls I feel I’m in too deep/
I’ve been in here far too long darling this world is killing me/
Who am I but a stranger/ What must I do so you believe what I’m saying/
If talk is cheap/ I’ve already been defeated before I begin to speak/
Or even start to breathe/
It’s a tragedy what we’ve come to be and I think sometimes I’m the one to blame/
We hear screaming hearts bleeding out but turn just to walk away/
Like there is no pain/
Why hurt each other we hurt ourselves enough/
Lets give tonight a break and forget ourselves/
These fragile hands cannot hold this weight so please take my hand and please hold the same/
Conforming to stand out is still a group in it’s own/
And hope without the “e” is just jumping alone/
These thoughts without a feeling is an opinion with no meaning so stand tall and fall hard/ Cause it’s better than not believing/
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Danger, Danger!
04:11
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I’m just an imposter, but no I’m not I promise/
It’s when my thoughts compromise that I start feeling dishonest/
Average is the last I’ve ever wanted to be/
But I’m clever to escape this life that’s been given to me/
I don’t wanna be the man who fights, but never wins/
In a house of cards that’s always caving in, I’m cravin the attention it's always been my intention so I tell myself that I’m brave/ So I don’t feel like I’m average or I can hide my depression/
It’s a simple task I’ve perfected/ To protect and defend my own headache/
When I’m feeling neglected I turn to you for acceptance/
These colors can’t shine if they don’t share the light/
I think I’m losing control/ But they can’t have tonight.
This life will live and die/
I’m going home with a ghost tonight/
Slow motion counter suicide/
You’re haunting me with your ghost tonight/
(Danger/Danger)
I’m anti-social, but composed in composing/
It makes my thoughts a little bit darker, but it saves my soul from the exposure/
When the listener becomes the keeper/ Together we’re one/
Who know each other’s secrets/ Together we’ve won/
We’re soldiers of the night with a slight of hand that holds too tight/
To these schitsaphrantic thoughts that tell us what’s wrong from what’s right/
We’re not alone just individuals/ In a world that shares a visual/
Of the rules and how we live them/ Lets break free from the traditional/
Danger, Danger/ I’ve left my mind/
Danger, Danger/ This world is suicide/
Danger, Danger/ We’re coming for you/
This is our redemption/ To all that’s left here/
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7. |
Converge
03:44
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City bound runnin and it’s got me thinkin about a life that’s past/
The moral of the story is life’s not just one it’s about a thousand of them/
I’ll keep my focus straight full speed ahead until I get my way/
I’ll use this life to raise my void that keeps me miles away/
I’ll keep it off my mind/
Social misfit but I don’t mind/
We all fall down sometimes/
But pick yourself up we’ll be alright/
This is a war I will fight/ This is a battle I’ll win/
How can you tell me I’m wrong/ Or that the devil doesn’t sin/
You can prove to me all you want/ You can lie but that’s cheating yourself/
My thoughts are the only one/ That knows the difference from Heaven and Hell/
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8. |
The Dark Game
04:01
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Things that made you smile/ Don’t seem to these days/
Slow down lights are flashing/ It’ll save you from me/
The bridges you’ve built are all torn down/
Leaving us separate, but free/
Standing alone doesn’t make you alone/ Not when you’re by me.
Dr. Happy take a bow/
You’ve won over me/
Dr. Happy find your seat/
The show is starting/
A sickness within is all that it seems/
A darkness scratching from under your skin/
Our world is just a rental soon they will want it back/
The odds are not fair, but we’re given a chance/
Our wishes turn to prayers lets stop and think but not stare/
A life without dreams; living in a world without air/
Grim will start knocking before you are dressed/
So gather your things and please exit stage left/
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Civil Youth Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Civil Youth is the energetic, alternative rock band exploding out of the East Coast with their roots planted in Philadelphia, PA. Between electronic synths, soaring Pop vocals and heavy guitars, Civil Youth posses the blend of modern rock with the animalistic and captivating ingenuity of synth-based alternative music ... more
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